Got my #May #flower. #majblomma #Morrissey #straightedge #sxe #pma #oloc @tobymorse
So I’m gonna choose happiness and just post pictures of cute animals and just be happy.
so here comes the spam.
At a pre-school I worked at last week, and what I’m #thankfull for. #thanksgiving #turkey #thanks #happiness #happinessisachoice #pma
Omg. I wrote this almost 2 months ago. I remember the anxieties I had the first 6-7 times I went to my mma classes. Second time I went I was sitting in the locker room for almost 15 minutes (nobody else was in there at that time), trying to convince myself not to walk out and go back home. For those first 6-7 times I really had to prepare myself for it when I woke up that day (even if it was like 10-13 hours until I was gonna be there), as if I didn’t wake up with enough anxieties already. But I pushed my anxieties (over that) aside, and choosed happiness. And now I’ve been doing it for almost 2 months.
I’m so happy I stuck with it. I love it. I love being pushed to my limit when it comes to exercising. I love the place, the people there are amazing, I’ve made some cool and awesome friends. And all of this is helping me fight, and cope with, my anxieties so much.
I’ve found a place where I belong.
Looking at the view, having great lunch, listening to podcasts. #lifeisawesome #pma #happinessisachoice #watermelon #vitacoco #coconutwater (Taken with Instagram)
To be able to choose happiness more, and get the pma going I need to stop being bitter about this day, and stop hating it.
So, ok then.
Today I am twenty-freakin-eight years old.
How awesome is it that this day falls on a cheat day this year?
Don’t have a job for the summer, get no student grant until late august - early september, and no help from social services until July 19th. Thought I would get paid today since I worked a few hours at the school where I had my work experience thingy..Damn it, I should have been last month even (think my tutor forgot to send it in to the people who takes care of peoples salaries and stuff. and Now she’s on vacation and wont read my email for a while).
I don’t even have money to pay rent!
I have 200 kronas (28 USD, 18 GBP, 30 CAD, 28 AUD, 22 EUR, 170 NOK, 168 DKK..If I forgot your currency, sorry…or just go convert youself. haha) to live on all through July.
Well 13th is my birthday…perhaps my mom will give me a lil something? Lol, probably not. -_-
A moment like this it might be hard to keep the pma up, and choose happiness. But I’m trying to not think about all that stuff and focus on, and do, other things I like.
Stuff always turn out ok in the end.